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Happy Monday all! I hope you don’t mind if I begin the week’s blog posts by sharing a bit about my weekend excursion to a beautiful spot in Alabama that captured my heart with its beauty.
My husband, Darren, and I spent the weekend relaxing with friends at their lake house on Lake Martin, one of the largest man-made lakes in the United States. At the time of completion (1926), Lake Martin was the largest man-made body of water in the world covering a surface area of 44,000 acres. Having never heard of Lake Martin prior to our visit, I fell in love with the tranquility of its early morning waters that are surrounding by more than 750 miles of wooded shoreline.
I thoroughly enjoyed waking up before the rest of our group, brewing a cup of coffee and heading down to the dock for my morning quiet time with God. Although my early morning “breakfast with God” is always my favorite part of the day, the past two mornings were more personal and intimate than ever before. Having the opportunity to revel in His presence as I watched the sun rise over calm and peaceful waters was like watching the words from one of my favorite scriptures spring off the page and come to life…
Due to an unhealthy childhood, I spent much of my life being fearful, afraid of the “what if’s” in life. Through the process of building a personal relationship with Christ, I am learning that He wants us to live a bold and victorious life.
Even with this knowledge, I often have to rely on scripture to regain my footing when fear presents itself and attempts to overtake my faith. Below is a scenario from this past weekend that perfectly illustrates this point:
On Saturday afternoon Darren and I were riding jet skis on the lake. The water was pretty rough causing me to feel insecure, doubt my ability to navigate across the waves. Instead of keeping my eyes above the waves and a consistent and steady pressure on the throttle, I decreased the pressure. I did not realize that the lack of pressure on the throttle would decrease the amount of control and turning radius I would need to navigate across the waves and onto smoother waters.
Tension and fear began to rise with each passing wave until I looked out over the water and up at the beautiful sky. It was then that my mind shifted from the horizontal to the vertical…
At that moment I realized I could remain afraid and insecure with my trust (or lack of it) in my own abilities or I could choose to let go. I could relax my body, breathe in the beauty of the moment and the reality that God was and always is with me. As I returned my gaze to the choppy waters, the lyrics to the song Oceans by Hillsong United popped into my mind…
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now
I realized that the outcome of this moment was totally up to me. I could choose to remain afraid or I could choose to enjoy quality time with my husband, surrounded by God’s gift of nature, a sky painted by his artistic hand.
With a deep breath, I made my decision and began to release the tension that had me bound up inside. Throttle down, full steam ahead I steered straight into the oncoming waves with complete trust that He was with me. I allowed my faith to overcome my fear as He led me across the waters, my soul resting in my Father’s loving embrace…
Sending peace, love & happiness to all!