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“What if the worst parts of your life are actually gateways to the very best parts you’d never want to do without?” Lysa TerKeurst
In 2016, I suffered the most unexpected and devastating betrayal of my life. I seriously thought I would die from the relentless stabbing of pain I felt in my heart. I cried out to God, I begged and pleaded with Him to “fix” this. Much like an attorney presents his facts of precedence to sway a jury, I prayed God’s promises back to Him in an attempt to get Him to bring the outcome I desired to my circumstances. I couldn’t understand why He wouldn’t answer, why He wouldn’t do what He had done for others in the same situation. Although I couldn’t see it at the time, God was creating a new plan for my life, a better plan.
How to let go
When we have been abused and betrayed by someone we love and trust, there is nothing we can do to ease the pain. Thankfully, God knows the exact remedy to soothe our shattered hearts. Our part is to lay our hurts at His feet and rest in Him while He orchestrates a new path for us.
God made a way in the desert for me to be in a safe environment where rejection was not possible, but the soil was rich and fertile to produce a great harvest of love. In my season of suffering, God led me to sow a seed when a friend was in need. Childcare for her newborn son, Asher fell through at the last minute, and she asked me for help. Had my marriage not fallen apart, I would never have said yes. Oh, what a blessing I would have missed!!! Literally, Asher, whose name means “blessed, happy,” has become the greatest gift God has ever given me outside of my own children who are now adults.
I have many memories where God’s presence was so close, I could feel His breath on my neck as He whispered,
“Kelly, do you see how you are holding this baby? Do you feel how relaxed he is in your arms? Imagine that this is you, resting upon my chest while I am singing a lullaby to your heart. Rest, let me love on you and heal your broken heart. I promise you, My child, I have plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future. But, you must trust Me and let go of the things that happened but didn’t last. Let go of the pain, let go of the bitterness, let go of the resentment so there will be plenty of room for me to grow the most beautiful garden you will ever see. Before I can rescue you, you have to let go of what is holding you back.”
Sending peace, love, and happiness to all!
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